Crap

My whole life I’ve been taught to do the responsible thing. Part of my Calvinistic upbringing I suppose. It builds character my mother used to say. If you act responsibly and honourably you can look people in the eye and sleep well at night.

I did the responsible thing today. For the greater good. Will I sleep better at night? Shit no. I’m going to spend the rest of my life wondering if this wasn’t the one time I should’ve been selfish and put me first.

On a more positive note – I’ve recently made a lifelong friend. And that doesn’t happen too often.